I am 17;male. I am very anti-social. I don’t particularly care about my family’s / friends’ problems. I fake whatever emotions that are appropriate for the situation. My mom was on drugs and alcohol during my pregnancy. During the end of the pregnancy, on her birthday, she did over $1000 dollars worth of crack. I was not treated at all for this and am overly intelligent. I was with my mom for 2 weeks then sent to live with a different family for 7 months while she got sober. I missed this bonding time with my mom. My mom has noticed my lack of compassion in the way that I respond to news stories and things like my brother catching fire. I often laugh when people are hurt or cry. I also laugh at things that most people would find funny as well. I have never and will never hurt animals, but I love torturing insects and pretending that black ops is real when playing it. I have many murderous thoughts. I have lied alot. I have also put weed in one of my friend’s P.E. locker because I got annoyed by his presence. I did it in a planned and controlled way and even calmly lied about it to his face when I saw him. I also cannot stand people, albeit the people who give me things or are nice to them. I hate them again shortly after they give me something. I grow bored easily. I have a lot of self control, so I’ve never gotten into fights or trouble and I repress my anger every time. I am told by people that I’m calm, nice, smart, quiet, and that I look like im going to kill everyone in the school. People also tell me that I look scary, like a serial killer, and are concerned about my undereye circles, which look very dark in contrast with my pale skin. I have no explanation for what causes them. I lack compassion, empathy, remorse / guilt, and most emotions ( I have anger, humour, and disgust ). I have a head twitch and eye twitches. I am told I have the “sociopath stare”. I have told people this, but no one takes it seriously. I know I’m not normal.
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