Before you tell “oh you should be ashamed of yourself.” How about you look at my shoes look my point of view instead of just feeling sorry for her. I am younger I’m 17 and she’s 18. She use to be extremely violent and she use to hurt me the worse of it is my parents never did anything to help me when she would abuse me. I almost got killed by her, even my mom remembers watching her drown me in the swimming pool. She has always needed to be loved more than me, yes it hurts a lot that my parents neglected me, physically and mentally. I had to sacrifice my life to make her happy all the time. She always gets whatever she wants when she wants it, I never been like that I never wanted anything except for my parents to actually support me. I use to get severely bullied in elementary school due the mental issues I got from sharing a bedroom with her, her abusive, angry behaviour. I feel angry at my parents since I give all the stuff I had up for her. They keep calling me selfish and stupid, I was raped by 3 people and I just got out of an abusive relationship plus now i’m going ot be single teen mom all of this is overwhelming. Yes my parents give me a home but honestly I wish I could’ve had a normal sister not this horrible excuse of a person she acts like 6 year old in a 18 1/2 year olds body. I wish I could get out of there just so I get away from all of them. My mom constantly protects her and guards her but they never ever did anything for me they just left me to die pretty much. whenever i get upset or cry they yell at me, they have thrown me out of the house many times and I was on the streets a couple of times because they are so focussed and stressed over her that they don’t even look after me. I have severe depression, i always have panic attacks ever since I could remember I was unstable and I was always on my own without any kind of help. When my baby’s born I will make sure she doesn’t get neglected like how I did with my whole family. If you any of you start saying she can’t help it she wants to be normal just like everyone else. Well, I never see anyone feel sorry for the people who have to live with this problem. I dont have any emotional feelings towards my sister or my parents. I have no where to turn to for my anger I am suicidal I want to just kill myself I feel like more of the burden than my sister is. Now that my sister’s 18 she’s worse she has more tantrums and she can do whatever she wants, because my parents dont want to piss her off. she does everything just so my mom will give her attention and she treats me like dirt from the start she treated me like dirt, i dont care if she has special needs they can love and give affection. she gives my parents affection but she treats me like dirt. no matter how I do for her my parents still make me feel like a piece of crap :l. I do want her to go away once i move out of the house I am going to remove them out of my life I cant take my parents anger towards me and my sister’s neediness for my parents. Like I sometimes think why the heck was I born, if i was going to suffer alone and being brought to this world. I hate myself I cant stand looking myself I use to self harm because that was only way I could cope. I have no one to talk to about my problems I cant tell my parents how i feel about all of this because they never understand, they just make me feel worse. there have been times were my mom told I should go kill myself in anger or she said how useless I am. After a while of hearing them tell me how useless i am and how I wont ever become anything has stuck into my brain. I cant take all of them anymore i might end up killing myself one day because of all of this they dont ever help me out they never comforted me when i told them i was raped or i use to be abused by my ex physically by the baby’s dad. Yes I have a lot of issues but I need help I need help on coping with everything. I cant be around my sister anymore without tensing up or feeling angry.
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