I’m 20 years old, my boyfriend and I just moved in with my mother and her boyfriend. Before I was pregnant my boyfriend was so abusive, since the pregnancy he has been less and less abusive. He will still hit me occasionally, threaten me, and says mean things but nothing dangerous to me or the baby… Since finding out I am pregnant I have been super depressed. I thought that when we moved in with my mom and her boyfriend things would get better. I thought he would have to cut back on drinking, I thought he would stop hurting me, i thought i would finally have at least my mom to talk to so i wouldn’t be so lonely. but he’s been drinking more, just as abusive, my mom doesn’t want to talk to me. She always takes his side. Her boyfriend is abusive but is mean to her and cheats on her. Which makes me even sadder. I feel so alone all friends and family have abandoned me. Now all I have left is him, he will never talk to me. I’m having his baby which i find out the sex tom, I’m terrified its a boy and I’m terrified it will be just like him.. I didn’t go to collage so i don’t think I could afford to be a single mom plus my family would disown me. My family wont allow me to work while pregnant either. I always think about suicide though I never would because I am pregnant, but if i wasn’t pregnant I wouldn’t either because i wouldn’t feel so trapped. Don’t get me wrong I want to have this baby i’m just so scared and overwhelmed things seem so hopeless sometimes… Any advice or words of encouragement?
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