Okay, so first of I will tell you I am 12/13.
Last year, I had to get five teeth pulled by the dentist because I needed braces. All baby teeth. Some loose, some not. So, I was sent to the dentist. (I go normally every six months.) When I got there, I was worried. But, when they put that laughing gas mask on me, I paniked. I have always been scared of being “gased” (like in holocost or whatever.). So, when they strapped it to me, I paniked. I was sort of able to convinve myself to breathe it in, but it worse. I must have been somewhat alergic to it, because I started shaking like mad and crying out of fear. Then they brought out the shot to numb my gums. (I do not have a fear of shots, btw.) Being held to a chair by multiple nurses, being gased, and my worriment was already making me twitch, cry, scream, and shake (I have never done any of this before. well, I mean obviosly I’ve screamed b4 and I’ve cried, but even when I was little I never had tantrums.) but, when they brought out this large needle with yelow fluid in it, I lost it. I was kicking shaking screaming twitching having spasums, etc. I had no control over myself it seemed. I sat up, and refused to go down. I was so scared and had so much adrenuiale that a man, 3 ladies, and my mom, could not keep me down.
Anyway, that’s all I really remeber and even that was blurry.
Then they sent me to a “kid dentist”. Like a whatever-trician. lol. Well, first off, being in a room with crying 6 year olds doesn’t help. I somehow managed to say somewhat calm in the waiting room, telling myself I would just get it over with. Once I was in the office in that chair, I started to panic. after the dentists “soothing words”, he made me lay down, and gave me laughing gas. once again, I paniced. this mask in particular made it so my head was strapped to the seat. I’m not sure exaclty what I did, but I’m pretty sure it was worse then before. he gave me a pill and told me to come back in an hour and I couldn’t eat anything.
so, while we waited, my mom and I went to walmart. I acted drugged, all happy, jumpy, and overall, silly. I was in my own little happy land. my mom was sure these had done the trick. so was I. But, as soon as I was in that chair again, I paniced. less, though. But, they held me to the seat, and he brought out The Shot. He said it was “just liquid icecream” which made it worse because that means there had to be a really big reason he had to call it that, like it was very painful. I kicked out of all 7 people and stood in the doorway, refusing to get back in unless he took that shot away. He did, and I sat back down. I let him pull out the one loose tooth that didn’t need the numbing shot to sooth any pain. But, I didn’t let him use the shot. When I saw how much they charged my mom for that visit (over $500) I felt so bad, I went back onto the seat, crying, and trying to find the shot so I could give it too myself and pull out my own teeth. But, there was a nurse in there cleaning up the mess I had made (rember I was drugged.) she made sure I did not get them. I begged and begged for her to give them to me. She said she couldn’t. Then I heard the dentist telling my mom I was going to have to be “put under”. I did know what this meant, and I knew that a shot was no big deal to me, which is true. Shots anywhere but my mouth don’t bother me.
Well, on the way home, I managed to feel so mad at myself, that I ripped out one of the teeth with my fingernails. let’s just say there was a lot of blood.
Well, the news that I was going to have to be “put under” reached my orthodontist. he decided it was to risky and that I would have to loose them naturally. Since, I have lost one. I have two left. But, now I have a large fear of dentists. I have an appointment (not to get teeth pulled or anything.) on Monday, and right now I’m worrying so much that I’m in tears. Wgat can I do on Monday so that I don’t have more panic attacks?
-I’ve never had any cavities.
-Soryy it was a lot to read.
-Sorry about grammer/spelling I was typing fast.
Thanks in advance,
Emma.
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Help! New Fear Of Dentist?
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